Lack

"Our first attempts at present-moment awareness are like a person trying to form a word she has never heard before, or a fish trying to swim for the first time. We've explored the earth, the sea, and the skies, we've even traveled to space in search of something we never find. We're tried every conceivable virtue and vice. We've tried an infinity of cults, conspiracy theories, and time-saving devices. And all of this trying steals us away from what we are actually seeking. Yoga suggests that if we stop looking for something, we will find that it was never missing in the first place. Resting in the felt experience of  being here, we realize that there is nothing lacking."
by Rolf Gates, Meditations on Intention and Being

This passage by Rolf Gates reminds me and hopefully you, that not much of this human material stuff really matters. Why are we here to begin with? Why do we exist? The truth is, we are energy beings having human experiences. The present moment is all there is and all that matters. Your job title, the material things you collect, the clothes your wear, the award you seek, is all an illusion to avoid facing the scarier question: what is this being alive thing really about? We, our bodies, our thoughts, our emotions, are composed of energy and are constantly interacting with the energy surrounding us. Like energy attracts like energy. Be negative and find yourself amongst negative people, negative interactions and negative events. Be and focus on the positive and find the positive. All there is, is the energy you are experiencing right here, right now. We do a number of things to distract ourselves from feeling into this present energy. We look outside. We look to "things." Instead, get quiet. Feel into your body. Deeper than your muscles and bones. Feel into the nuances, the spirit, the vitality, the love. That's what you've been seeking. It's been there all the while.